They expect me to be effortlessly queer

I am the queer that they have nothing to ask during truth or dare and for a long while I… Read more They expect me to be effortlessly queer

Want to feel real

I hope this doesn’t crash again. I used to write prose here right? I haven’t been posting for a while.… Read more Want to feel real

To Dominic. Part 1

What I am about to say is private and honest. People associate being submissive with vulnerability. Indeed, I am not… Read more To Dominic. Part 1

We have nothing to gain, nothing to lose

I spent the unforgiving summer with many men. Often I wondered if they offered more to me, or I to… Read more We have nothing to gain, nothing to lose

Lonely Planet

人在意大利，覺得Lonely Planet的名改得真好。 我明天就會過米蘭，現人在羅馬。羅馬是古城，從前沒有私家車，所以民居盡在市中心，設施建築物都在步距中。我在羅馬步行三天，到第四天力有不逑，只坐在大街旁一欄桿上寫作。 我忘了旅行也有情緒差的時候。昨天情緒差，景點到了沒看回去睡。今天⋯⋯還好。只有感我很想回去休息，但世界正美麗，我不想歸去。其實天大地大，哪裏都一樣——都有小狗喜歡纏人、有男人鳩痕或寂寞，都有成熟的女人做經紀，都有年輕貌美的青年做飲食。都有隨街屹立的報紙檔、也有聽無線耳機跑步的男女人、也有永遠等不到的巴士或電車，都有英文比媽媽講得好的小童，也有隨地拋的煙頭。世界大致相同，但大家的意識文化不一樣。We are very similar in “what” we do, but it is the “how” we find exotic. 我走致很累，很想回家，覺得改天我會想回到此地，但我現在只想回家睡三天。我或者應到鬥獸場的廣場，但我沒有現金和天已黑。我又很想走細街，但又怕雙腿太累。其實哪裏都一樣，哪裏我也很lonely。我應該跟剛才性騷擾我那男人回家做愛，然後我就沒有多餘的時間左思右想。我覺得，如果我可以在意少一點，就可以活得很淫蕩。我已經連續兩晚脫光所有衫打飛機，幻想下隔床那房客發現我，然後我就會發春夢，夢見他把持不住，爬上我的床跟我做愛。但我的春夢很少插入，插入了也不會高潮。… Read more Lonely Planet

Summer 2019 as I Remember it

This is the summer of 19 and I am at my Pacific Coffee barista job. At times I need a… Read more Summer 2019 as I Remember it

As flies to wanton boys, are we to the gods; they kill us for their sport.

And suddenly I begin to understand why people like younger boys. Or girls. Some prefer older men because they’re wiser… Read more As flies to wanton boys, are we to the gods; they kill us for their sport.

red light showcase

I have this imagination. In a red light showcase, those of Amsterdam, male bodies stood, posing, daze eyed. This came… Read more red light showcase

Protected: Pride 2018: I am an animal with you.

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